The big day…
Yes, way too early in the morning, some person I’ve never met will make me sip uncannily-colored drinks and will proceed to take photos of my inner bits. That sounds almost sexy, in a mildly disturbing sort of way, doesn’t it? Well, it’s not. It’s a disgusting, intrusive, time-sucking procedure that I wish I could skip. Alas, like Luna Bravo says, in Pre-Chaos, “sometimes a little bad [is] necessary in order to survive.”
For this one the “surviving” bit is quite literal, since my tummy has been a mighty bastard lately… But while I’m getting my little bad, I shall think about coming home to immerse myself in a lot of yum. How? I’m loading Blooming Howls right after I return from the hospital. That way, there will be no danger of the book being published while I’m being poked and pictured (I know this is the wrong use of the word, but I’m feeling rebellious)…and selfish.
I’m terrified of letting the book go live while I’m half conscious—this is a total exaggeration, by the way, since tomorrow’s procedure is uncomfortable but not very invasive… There shall be no drooling… or kicking of doctors… accidentally.
However, those who use KDP probably know what I’m talking about: you do all the work; you know in your gut the work was done right; yet, you still bite your toenails to the quick waiting to see if the text you submitted has been cyber-napped by space goblins with a passion for hieroglyphs and Klingon lexicon. Okay, so that’s unlikely to happen, but the panic of new publication is similar to the panic that surrounds any birth: those involved nearly always think that everything that can go wrong will go worse.
Here is a witchy quote from Jena Thorn
to lull my angst. I mean, for you to enjoy *cough*:
“Freely walk through my burning essence
with purpose but not in haste,
close your eyes,
know my intent,
trust my soul to guard your face.”
~ Kiss with Punch
Have you ever kept yourself from doing something you love because you are terrified of doing it wrong or because life
and your physicians keep on getting in the way?
This post is lovingly dedicated to a treasured and respected friend, who has a mind full of worlds, a living full of experiences, a bunch of tales written but never shared, a storyteller who (rather erroneously) believes that other writers publish their art because they aren’t terrified silly every time a new work is about to come out.
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This made me giggle aloud.