Adieu in Art-Full Dénouement

Once…
He smiles. She smiles back.
“Ride with me,” he says. And she tells him, “If you smile, I will.”
They rode. Together. Smiling at each other.
“I only want you forever,” he says. And she tells him, “I want your smile forever.”
They lived. Sometimes together. Not always smiling.
“I need time, space, other things,” he says. And she tells him, “I want your smile.”
They walked. Apart. Unsmiling; broken, in a puzzle that used to be new…
Old puzzles gradually lose their pieces
They get dropped, swept away, forgotten
We don’t mean to, toss these ambiguous yet significant little pieces
Facsimiles can be made, crude pieces
to blend into the mess
Assembled, still beautiful viewing from a distance
Their scars only visible while piecing them back together
We tear them apart, and store them away, only to rediscover, and to deconstruct again
How many times can a puzzle fit back together
before too many patch jobs distort its image
How many pieces can be lost before an old puzzle must be thrown away

Twice…
He shows up in the middle of the time of her life, smirking. She smiles back.
“Fly home with me,” he says. And she tells him, “Only if you smile.”
They flew. Together. Smiling at each other, for about six minutes.
“You confine me,” he says. “I can’t give myself completely to you. I need other things.”
She ran. Parting fast. Dry-faced, saged…undamming a universe of disenchantment.
Another bandage to cover the wound
a bleeding scar
Their hands are bound by them
sores healed but not forgotten
Dead layers of flesh protecting what
life remains beneath
Dulled nerves eating away
at their sense of touch
Still holding each other
remembering how it felt before
Their grip ever loosening from the
loss of sensation

Thrice.
“Come back to me,” he says. And she asks him, “Why?”
“We’re unfinished,” he says. “I see what matters, now. Come back to me. I’ll smile.
And she thinks, Rip, repair… rip, repair, rip. “I’ll come to see you unbroken, if you smile.”
He smiled for four, maybe two minutes. No happiness touched her heart.
“I’m leaving. Trust is dead; spat on,” she tells him. “You aren’t you. And I’m still me.”
“Don’t go,” he says. “I’ll change. I need you. I’ll fix it. I’ll smile evermore. We match.”
The edges don’t fit together 
any longer
The once crisp lines tattered as
chipping wallpaper
Nothing last forever in this
dripping word
Moisture corrodes us from
within, and without
Dabbing the droplets, halting the
pooling effect, stopping up leaks
Rot sets in quickly when bacteria is
left to spread

She plus He was murdered years ago, sometime between Germany and Japan.
The ghost of her life with him… of his life with her… haunted the back of the mind,
pretending to be alive.   
Banished was their joined yesterday. Put to rest in peace by a charm that was cast thrice.
Today, Tomorrow, and Always… celebrate a gone love’s adieu in art-full dénouement. 


image by Miruna Uzdris
 “Adieu in Art-Full Dénouement” by Magaly Guerrero and Jacob McClellan 

48 comments:

  1. For a moment there I thought you and Jacob were parting again. I'm glad it isn't so. I wanna see pictures of your old shop turned loving home under tall man's hands and crazy woman's words. (And 'crazy' is a word I use only with affection.)

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    1. You got it right the first time. It is over, and we didn't want any ugliness. I figure that one final things together would bring closure.

      I've never thought of crazy as a bad thing ;-)

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    2. Oh, I didn't want to be right. But I did have a feeling. I'm so sorry things didn't work out.

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  2. I'm not so sure that you and Jacob haven't parted. Are you okay Magaly??

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    1. Always the seer, dear Francie. I am all right. We both are. There is disappointment and pain, for so much time was put into this. But some things can't be fixed. It is healthier to let things go.

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  3. I hope this is not about you....
    We worry and want you to be happy....

    Stinging prose, full of hurt and sadness....beautifully written, though I hesitate to use the word beautiful in response to what may be your pain :(

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    1. I am not unhappy. I set out to fix or to end and there was no fixing. I have closure.

      Don't feel bad about saying that it is beautiful. It was my intention. I didn't want anyone to think that things got ugly just because they didn't work out. In the birth of something new, there is laboring pain. Then come the smiles ;-)

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  4. Those words sent shudders of sadness and strange contentment through my soul...like some one at peace with their decision. Love you :D XXX

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    1. This is an enormous sigh Gina. The exhaling of a breath that was held for ages; "peace" defines it well. Maybe not a happy ending, but a positive one.

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    1. I shall explain soon, Robin...

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  6. sad and wistful...fleeting happiness. Sounds like a good decision was made by her...to rip no more
    Hugs
    SueAnn

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    1. I think she did, too. Fabric can only be repaired so many times before it stops holding, taking... A time comes when the fabric needs to be used for something new ;-)

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  7. Oh oh sweet Magaly. Are you OK? Sending Warmth up to your frozen corner of the world.

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    1. I'm all right, you are too sweet. A bit tired from a very long drive, but I'm fine. Must sleep for a while... Thanks for the "Warmth" it is COLD around here ;-)

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  8. Always the traveling soul my dear Magaly ~ here's wishing you a time of peace, rest, and rejuvination♥

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    1. I do travel a bit, don't I? I must've been a bird--perhaps a phoenix--in a past life ;-)

      "peace, rest, and rejuvenation" indeed!

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    2. I love how you soar, usually so much further above the rest~♥

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  9. This really touched me Magaly.. I'm a little sad.. :( Comfort to your soul my friend..

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    1. Don't be sad, life happens and we with it. Then it continues going and we do better things, some not so great, but the experiences still yummy ;-)

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  10. Just be happy, Magaly. I noticed you weren't posting about Jacob for the past few weeks...
    I think that you are such an all-sufficient person, you know what you and what you don't. Even if takes you to part with someone you love. I don't say it's a goo decision, but I don't know your circumstances well.
    And the poem cum story in three parts is beautifully written.
    Sending blessings your side!

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    1. So perceptive... and accurate in your assessment. I think most decisions, when it comes to this kind of situations, are complicated. We do what we must and hope it was best.

      Thanks for the bit about "all-sufficient" I appreciate it ;-)

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  11. Beautifully written, but I'm so sorry Magaly :(

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    1. There is much to be sorry about, I guess. But I'm not sad, just thoughtful... is that weird? I hope not. My soul needed this. I welcome it ;-)

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  12. Sorry it did not work out. At least now you know for sure.

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    1. And there, my dearest Diandra, is where the hammer sinks the nail: now I know ;-)

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  13. I am so sorry! But you are the bravest woman i know and life is for the brave and love is too. I am here for you if you need anything!
    Sending lots and lots of hugs and love!

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    1. Hm... I might have to start my own Witchy Amazon Circle after all this comments about my bravery lol. Thanks for the love, and for the offering ;-)

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  14. This is amazing. I love it. Such a perfect capture.

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    1. Important things tend to render touching art. Is that too arrogant? I'm an Aries after all. Glad you love it ;-)

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  15. I'm sorry things didn't work out dear heart, but am happy you've found closure and now know for sure. This really was beautiful, if painful as well. Life rewards the brave who embrace it fully and I have no doubts that there are even more magical things and so much love in store for a dragonhearted woman like you.

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    1. At the moment, I have 'brave' by the neck and will hold on for dear life. I think it's enjoying my dragon heart ;-)

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  16. Oh, Magaly. Sometimes to go forward, you have to go backwards for a while. But at least you know now. You don't have to look back on things and think what if? You are braver than lots of people, who stick in boring humdrum lives without taking chances. Keep taking those chance, my woman.

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    1. Yep, you need to take a step back (or three) to gain enough momentum to live on. Life is clearer now ;-)

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  17. Magaly, I am so sorry! I don't know what to say! As long as you are at peace with everything, that is the main thing! Sending big warm hugs!

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    1. Your "big warm hugs!" are the perfect thing to say, do, and receive. So gracias ;-)

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  18. Oh wow. I'm sorry it didn't work out, though I'm glad you're both fine, judging from your responses to other comments.

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    1. A big mangled here and there. Jacob is hurting a bit more than I am, methinks. Okay, I know he is. But I'm leaning towards believing that this is true because I did my mourning and hurting about 5 years ago. I just needed closure.

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  19. *hugs* I'm sorry Magaly. I know you are strong, but I'm here if you ever need to talk. This might be an ending, but knowing you the new beginning is just around the corner. :)

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    1. A woman who reads my heart. I'm a Witch: I understand that life and death are a cycle. Something dies, so another can live. I'll live on... ;-)

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  20. Aw darling sad but at least you know now. Beautifully spoken and touches the soul. You'll be ok sweetie. Hugs!

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    1. Hugs, right back at you. We need "sad," every now and then, so that we know how to recognize "happy." Life is balance with people in it ;-)

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  21. Ouch. :( Another ghost laid to rest? Will you be accompanied by your pup, this time? Try to stay warm, sunshine.

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    1. Put to rest in peace what had been restless in pieces for a long time. It was a good thing. You've touched in the only forever bad detail. My baby is not with me. It's difficult to type this because, well, he has been having trouble eating. He is barking at Jacob and stuff. He is upset. Missing me. I miss my Attila all the time, but I couldn't take him out of the farm. The only time he lived in the city he got sick; depressed... this is really, really hard...

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  22. If he remains upset with Jacob, returning for Attila might be the only alternative, especially if he starts to become aggressive in his unhappiness. Part of Attila' unhappiness the first time around might well have been because you were so unhappy. Give A. another week. If he doesn't settle, get him. So long as you're at rest, he will be (might take a month to get his schedule down, & a great many walkies,but that should be it)

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    1. He is eating again, after some egg white intervention (in the past, I've missed his food with a bit of egg white when he wouldn't eat). He is a little sad and continues to look for me around the house, but he is doing better. I think the transition will be slow, but he'll all right. I know he'll be all right. He is a strong puppy.

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  23. Oh honey...does this mean what my instincts are shouting inside my mind, while my heart refuses to believe it? I am so sorry my wicked love. Please contact me if you need to "talk". I love you sweetie. (My arms are wrapped tightly around you right now) Mina

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    1. It means exactly that, but it is a good thing. I'm in a good place. Trust me; as soon as I take care of the mundane logistics, I will be needing an ear (or three). You are loved right back, my Mina. Thanks for the hug ;-)

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