I’ve reread many of my old posts… Some left me giggling, a few crying, and many of them made me go, “My goodness, I’ve grown quite a bit these last few years.” The exercise also helped me decide not to change a thing about my old entries. Remember how I had planned to edit everything? Well, I won’t.
I enjoyed the opportunity of looking back and seeing how I’ve changed, and in what ways I remain the same witchy writer. Some of the changes are not actual changes; not really. Realization and self-understanding are better descriptions for what I’ve gone through.
For instance, in my answers to a meme I posted on January 2011, I said that Sin/Nanna was my patron god and Hekate my patroness goddess. I remember how uneasy I felt when I responded to those questions, but I didn’t know why. Today, I know: I don’t really have a patron god or patroness goddess. I identify with Sin, The Green Man, Hekate and The Morrigan, but I see them as different aspects of One Devine that needs no gender division.
So… I haven’t really changed. It wasn’t that a year ago I believed those gods were my patrons and I’ve changed my mind; no. The truth is that I didn’t understand what my heart already knew. It took me some time to see it.
I also like comparing my 2009 writing to that of today. This was the part that made me giggle the most. Posts and stories that used to take me hours to compose; now they take less than a third of the time. And the writing is tighter and more reflective of what I want to convey.
A writer friend advised me to strip my blog of “bad grammar, sloppy syntax, weak writing structure, and anything that might lead a reader to believe that I’m anything less than a serious author in the making.” I know she means well, so I’ll follow some of her advice. I’ll edit and probably develop selected titles from the short fiction I’ve written for Pagan Culture, but I’m leaving my other posts alone.
I learned something else. I used to think that I didn’t have a diary, but what’s Pagan Culture if not my journal?
Do you treat your blog as a personal, artistic or work journal? Has your blogging theme changed since your began sharing your thoughts with the world?
Now back to writing fiction. I left my main character in a terrible mood… in the middle of her kitchen garden… holding a machete… I don’t remember seeing any weeds. She might behead the lettuce… or the garlic. Um, did I just hear a peppery scream?
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