Pagan Culture--or should I say me?--gets its considerable amount of hate mail, from Pagans and non-Pagans alike. The first group uses colorful words to tell me that “Eclectic Paganism is the pipedream of the weak and confused”, while the second groups (mostly Christians) email me to preach about “eternal torture in a hell of [my] own creation.”
I have a rule: hate mail goes straight to my spam folder, unopened. The subject lines are usually quite telling and I don't know about you, but I don't let anyone insult me if I can help it. However, every once in a while I click on one by accident or I’m tricked into believing it’s something harmless. Today, I opened a hateful massage because I felt the need to reply to the sender. I will only share the subject line and I apologize in advance, for it might hurt you like it did me. It said: “You and your children will burn in hell because of your blasphemy and deviance!”
The body of the email contained a series of insults, accompanied by Bible passages--ironic, I know. At the end, the sender pasted a review of the movie The Golden Compass, titled “Will your kid discover his personal ‘daemon’?” The critical piece argued that Hollywood’s “relentless goal” might be “to de-flower, de-Christianize and paganize Western youth”. The conclusion tells parents that “The dark spirits encircling this movie, as with the books, are palpable and will eat our young alive.”
The review didn’t bother me much, for this type of ignorant, closed-minded opinions are all over the Internet. I take that back, one thing did annoy me: the disrespect of the writer who failed to capitalize the words Paganism or Pagan, when referring to the spiritual path and its followers. I’m pissed off, but hardly surprised, for I know that stupidity is rarely restricted to just one part of the brain.
The email as whole, especially the message it promoted, did hurt me. It sadden me to think that someone can hold so much malice in his heart, to wish harm to innocent--even unborn--creatures. I don’t care what anyone says about me. I'm a grown woman who knows how to take care of herself. But when some idiot attacks my future children, I get angry. Ask me how bad I wanted to scream nasty things to that person? How bad I wanted to curse his existence? How bad, for one short instance, I wanted to cause him harm? Very bad. But I’m better than him so I didn’t.
I replied with the following note instead:
I don’t believe in hell, but I do know that what goes around comes around, so I’ll pray for your children. I pray that your ill intent doesn't touch them, for they shouldn’t have to pay for your bigotry or your ignorance.
I would appreciate if you didn't email me again. May the Gods cleanse your soul.
Wicked Darlings, I was in in tears when I started writing this post, but not now. The Boyfriend called me, in between, and I’m feeling much better. Nevertheless, I’m still angry deep inside. I don’t want to be, so send me some of your positive energy.
In Darkness? Light! So please make me shine again…