Believing, Writing, Living...

Today was a day of quotes. The first blog I visited told me "Some things have to be believed to be seen." Then I clicked on my friend Marcia Colette's blog and she reminded me to "write like I am under contract."

I told myself, "WOW! These women must have my house bugged!" Do you Marcia? What about you, new friend from Life with Kaishon? Well, if you do, then I have to apologize for the weird noises I made last night. I dreamed I was duck calling. Yep, it weirded me out too!

Ralph Hodson's "Some things have to be believed to be seen", pretty much described my state of mind the last few months. I used to be a "see to believe" kind of girl, which might be why some things in my life didn't go so well. I wasn't seeing a whole lot of good, so I started to believe that it was just the way life was supposed to be. However, some life changing events pushed me into the 'believe and you might see' van wagon, and my life hasn't been the same ever since.

For instance, my love life had been a mess for as long as I could remember. I always thought I was too needy, too touchy-feely, too overwhelming... It had to be true, for most of my previous romantic partners made me see things that way. Lately, I started to believe that I wasn't too much of anything, at least not in a bad way; I am just ME. All of the sudden, I found a guy who thinks my annoying traits are perfect. Maybe because he acts the same way. So you see, I started to believe that I could find someone who would want me just the way I am, and voilĂ ! I found a soul that seems to glow every time he touches me. And, um... he shines all the time!

All that brightness reminded me of my fiction writing. I didn't start thinking about writing as a 'real job' until less than a year ago. To me writing was a hobby, so I used to get hobby-like results from my efforts. Last spring I went to my first writing convention and heard Kim Harrison say that in order to make it in fiction writing, "You must write like you already have the contract." I've written many short stories since then, and I am nearly done with my first novel length manuscript! I gave myself a January deadline, so keep me in check ;)

I'm not trying to say that my life is perfect now. I don't even know if this new relationship is going to work. Also, I might write 50 novels, but who says that they are going to sell? All I'm trying to convey is that life is much more fun when one believes in oneself, and in the things one wants to accomplish.


Have you read any blogs that made you feel the blogger was talking about you?

25 comments:

  1. yes there are times when i go on a blog an d what they say seems to be projected just for me :)it gves you soom good insite though which is great

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  2. Awww... don't you just love that feeling? When someone's words make you think of yourself and the goodness of the rest of the world? Or even rethink some things that aren't all that good; it is just the process, it's such a great feeling.

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  3. It's freaky sometimes, it has been happening a lot recently!

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  4. It is indeed. I just visited a lady's blog that left me all teary-eyed and thinking about my maternal grandma...

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  5. Your writing always has a conversational tone that is most enjoyable and approachable. Your words are intimate.

    Perhaps we should share the journey of completing our novels! I also have a self imposed January deadline. Lets make some magick happen.

    I'm so happy for you and this shining soul. Amazinnngggg

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  6. Mmmmm, I like the idea of making magic together. We must exchange some emails and discuss this further. Specially if we are going to finish--or hope--around the same time.

    So tell me Chef gone nurse who is also a writer, wanna play editor?

    And thanks for being happy for my guy and I. I'm quite elated myself ;)

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  7. I'm thrilled that you've possibly found "the one." I tell you, there is nothing more magickal than the first few months of a relationship...when everytime you look at each other you get butterflies in the belly and weak in the knees.

    Often times over the 6 years I've been blogging, I've felt that blog writings were meant for me. That there was a message within that was specifically for me at that particular time in my life.

    My goal with blogging has always been to make folks smile and to document our day to day lives for my kids. I started blogging when my son was only a little more than a year old. My daughter wasn't even a blip on the radar yet. :)

    So literally, most of their lives have been documented by their mommy. I truly hope it's something they'll appreciate as they grow and mature.

    As for writing...it's my dream. Nothing lights a fire in my soul like putting words onto paper (or a computer screen). Yet, I find myself intentionally NOT writing day after day. Sometimes I think I'm scared of failure. And that's no way to live, is it?

    Perhaps you can serve as my inspiration, dear friend. :)

    Much love!

    )O(
    boo

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  8. I'm sure your little ones will appreciate their history online, at least some of it, not the embarrassing parts ;) I'm sure upset because I don't have any childhood memories.

    On the writing part, I'll quote a Witch I met at a writing convention about 3 monts ago. She told me that she had just received another rejection letter for her poem collection. I told her "That's always a bitch, isn't it?" She responded, "No, actually, I feel that every rejection takes me closer to publication." We laugh and I learned a lesson.

    I am as terrified of failure at the next person, but every time I send something out I step closer to My Big Day; even if the step is just a tiny move that makes me want to get better at the art of not getting rejected the next time.

    So write on Witch!

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  9. Oh pfffft.... your Jewish man-god is perfect for you and will prove the test of time. Are you kidding? Could you really even doubt for a minute?

    Life is always exactly as it should be. Through times of abundance, loss, sorrow, gladness, happiness, sadness and so on... life always finds a way. And happiness follows.

    Love you dear one. XO XO Xo

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  10. There are times that I hurt so bad inside over one truly hellish year of my life. Many things happened that I'm working around to revealing in my blog as I gather up the guts (lol) but one of them was my divorce. Since then there have been many times when I hurt and start to think "if only I'd never met him" but before I can even complete the thought my mind cringes away from it only to be followed by another. If I hadn't I would be a different person right now, perhaps completely unsuitable for the man I adore! And if I had never met my first husband I would not have two of my indescribably precious children. For those two reasons isn't about 13 yrs of a bad marriage worth every moment???

    So don't worry about "what ifs" in this relationship or your writing ventures!! Know without a doubt that wherever you are is EXACTLY where you're supposed to be at that moment and everything is going to work out just like it should!

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  11. Alix, you fill my heart with hope and my face with smiles. He is quite special to tell you the truth. Our religious views do contradict, but at the core we believe in the goodness of--most--people and in each other. We are hoping for the best and dreaming with magic and miracles.

    Clandestiny, you are absolutely right. I remember the time when I was full of rage and blaming my ex for everything from the failure of our marriage to bad wheather. Then time passed and the healing began. I understood that Fate won't be denied, we weren't meant to be and I needed to embrace that in order to move, and find the one who been waiting for me. I looked and looked and maybe that was the reason why I didn't find anything for a while. Then I stopped looking and this wonderful man pops into my life. I am "EXACTLY where [I] need to be" and moving confidently to where I know we belong.

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  12. Belief is the foundation of being.

    All religions spring from the same core/source. After much reading and investigation (really from the time of my first acid trip some 40 years ago) I embrace the pagan point of view. It seems more real than all the trappings of religion. I met and married a Jewish man. It has worked wonderfully for us, but then he is non-observant.

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  13. Dear Ellen, I do hope you just opened yourself up for millions of questions from moi, right?

    My guy is also non-observant. He doesn't eat pork and won't miss dairy with his meat (although cheese doesn't apply in his mind) there are other things, but nothing that will drive us nuts. He is a critical thinking and a lover of life, so that makes us very similar.

    I am so glad you told me this. I'm on my way out right now, but I'm going to poke your mind (through your blog--for now) as soon as I get back.

    Much love!

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  14. You seem wonderfully optimistic for someone who likes their writing dark. Faith in your beliefs is what makes it all happen. I recommend the first book that I read together with my husband, 'The Bridge Across Forever' by Richard Bach. Very romantic.

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  15. I like that concept! I've had a hard time seeing the positive lately, but have been trying to make an effort. We can't control what happens to us in life. All we can control is our attitude toward it.

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  16. I am glad to see that now you beleive in the fact that not all that we can't see, touch or smell is non-existent. Like, for example, your irresistable writing style. I am so glad you found the one to love you for who you are. As I was reading your post, before you mentioned HIM, I was thinking just that: "I hope she will soon find the guy who will not make her feel bad about herself, she so doesn't seem to deserve that."
    Good luck with the writing. It reads great!

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  17. Butternut Squash, nice observation! I do like my "writing dark". I figure that it is nicer, and easier, to appreciate darkness in fiction than in real life, don't you think? Thanks for the reading recommendation, I'll sure take a look-see ;)

    Alison, "We can't control what happens to us in life. All we can control is our attitude toward it." that is so true! We can't determine the amount of lemons we'll get, but we can always make sure that the lemonade taste good.

    Christine Forest, M.D., thanks so much for the kind words and the good wishes! I guess we grow, we learn and we believe--I'm still doing a lot of that. Every day that passes I find one more thing I was wrong about, but I don't get upset, I embrace it. Every discovery makes me think that there is yet, one more horrible thing in life that can be changed, if we just put our minds and hearts into it.

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  18. Alyson, don't be too mad at me for misspelling your name. It is early and I haven't had my hot cocoa yet ;(

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  20. I am glad to see that now you beleive in the fact that not all that we can't see, touch or smell is non-existent. Like, for example, your irresistable writing style. I am so glad you found the one to love you for who you are. As I was reading your post, before you mentioned HIM, I was thinking just that: "I hope she will soon find the guy who will not make her feel bad about herself, she so doesn't seem to deserve that."
    Good luck with the writing. It reads great!

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  21. You seem wonderfully optimistic for someone who likes their writing dark. Faith in your beliefs is what makes it all happen. I recommend the first book that I read together with my husband, 'The Bridge Across Forever' by Richard Bach. Very romantic.

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  22. Dear Ellen, I do hope you just opened yourself up for millions of questions from moi, right?

    My guy is also non-observant. He doesn't eat pork and won't miss dairy with his meat (although cheese doesn't apply in his mind) there are other things, but nothing that will drive us nuts. He is a critical thinking and a lover of life, so that makes us very similar.

    I am so glad you told me this. I'm on my way out right now, but I'm going to poke your mind (through your blog--for now) as soon as I get back.

    Much love!

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  23. Oh pfffft.... your Jewish man-god is perfect for you and will prove the test of time. Are you kidding? Could you really even doubt for a minute?

    Life is always exactly as it should be. Through times of abundance, loss, sorrow, gladness, happiness, sadness and so on... life always finds a way. And happiness follows.

    Love you dear one. XO XO Xo

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  24. I'm sure your little ones will appreciate their history online, at least some of it, not the embarrassing parts ;) I'm sure upset because I don't have any childhood memories.

    On the writing part, I'll quote a Witch I met at a writing convention about 3 monts ago. She told me that she had just received another rejection letter for her poem collection. I told her "That's always a bitch, isn't it?" She responded, "No, actually, I feel that every rejection takes me closer to publication." We laugh and I learned a lesson.

    I am as terrified of failure at the next person, but every time I send something out I step closer to My Big Day; even if the step is just a tiny move that makes me want to get better at the art of not getting rejected the next time.

    So write on Witch!

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  25. It's freaky sometimes, it has been happening a lot recently!

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