Today was a day of quotes. The first blog I visited told me "Some things have to be believed to be seen." Then I clicked on my friend Marcia Colette's blog and she reminded me to "write like I am under contract."
I told myself, "WOW! These women must have my house bugged!" Do you Marcia? What about you, new friend from Life with Kaishon? Well, if you do, then I have to apologize for the weird noises I made last night. I dreamed I was duck calling. Yep, it weirded me out too!
Ralph Hodson's "Some things have to be believed to be seen", pretty much described my state of mind the last few months. I used to be a "see to believe" kind of girl, which might be why some things in my life didn't go so well. I wasn't seeing a whole lot of good, so I started to believe that it was just the way life was supposed to be. However, some life changing events pushed me into the 'believe and you might see' van wagon, and my life hasn't been the same ever since.
For instance, my love life had been a mess for as long as I could remember. I always thought I was too needy, too touchy-feely, too overwhelming... It had to be true, for most of my previous romantic partners made me see things that way. Lately, I started to believe that I wasn't too much of anything, at least not in a bad way; I am just ME. All of the sudden, I found a guy who thinks my annoying traits are perfect. Maybe because he acts the same way. So you see, I started to believe that I could find someone who would want me just the way I am, and voilà! I found a soul that seems to glow every time he touches me. And, um... he shines all the time!
All that brightness reminded me of my fiction writing. I didn't start thinking about writing as a 'real job' until less than a year ago. To me writing was a hobby, so I used to get hobby-like results from my efforts. Last spring I went to my first writing convention and heard Kim Harrison say that in order to make it in fiction writing, "You must write like you already have the contract." I've written many short stories since then, and I am nearly done with my first novel length manuscript! I gave myself a January deadline, so keep me in check ;)
I'm not trying to say that my life is perfect now. I don't even know if this new relationship is going to work. Also, I might write 50 novels, but who says that they are going to sell? All I'm trying to convey is that life is much more fun when one believes in oneself, and in the things one wants to accomplish.
Have you read any blogs that made you feel the blogger was talking about you?